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Monday, May 10 2004 @ 09:12 AM Eastern Daylight Time |
The following eulogy was delivered at the Lopatin's home on April 25, 2004, as part of an evening marking the (symbolic, religiously-mandated) end of the 30-day mourning period that commenced at Amir's burial.
Click below for the video:
http://www.amirlopatin.com/images/Shloshim_Benji_10mb.wmv
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As you know, last September Amir’s father passed away. After the funeral service here in Englewood, I had a chance to talk to Amir right outside this home.
He told me three things that afternoon.
He told me he regretted not delivering a eulogy for his father (something, I should point out, he later did, and, I am told, did beautifully, at his father’s burial in Israel).
He told me that I should be proud of my father and mother for all they had done for his family during his father’s illness.
And, before heading back into his house to prepare for that evening’s trip to Israel, he told me something that I will never forget—he told me that it bothered him that the world would never again be able to hear his father’s side of the story.
I asked Amir what he meant by this, so he explained further.
It bothered him that his father could never again defend himself or commend himself when needed; that his good name and reputation would forever be in the hands of anyone who saw fit to speak of him; and, most troubling, that his father’s opinions and thoughts, his explanations and ideas, his intentions and desires, his arguments and beliefs—the full and nuanced expression of his father’s inimitable, complex perspective—now had to pass through the minds and mouths of others to be known.
I had never heard this perspective on death before, and it shook me. The thought was not a comforting one.
I asked Amir—so what are we to do then? How do we manage this void?
Before he could answer, he was summoned inside to get ready.
For the past month, I have thought a lot about what Amir told me that day and, suddenly, the questions he raised now seem terribly urgent—How do we fill this void of perspective when all we have now are guesses and speculation, presumptions and projections, interpretations and extrapolations? Are these really the tools we should be using to define Amir and sustain his identity? And must we define him, at all? Must we summarize Amir’s life?
I don’t pretend to know the answers to these questions. But I think that as long as we remain mindful of them—as Amir did—and accept that Amir’s perspective is NOT, in his absence, up for grabs, we won’t allow his identity to be reduced to convenient generalizations. We will dearly miss Amir’s voice and vision, and we will wonder and contemplate what he might have said or might have done, but in the absence of knowledge, ambiguity and uncertainty are sometimes more faithful representations of the truth.
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Sunday, May 09 2004 @ 07:24 PM Eastern Daylight Time |
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Sunday, May 09 2004 @ 05:05 PM Eastern Daylight Time |
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Saturday, May 08 2004 @ 09:35 PM Eastern Daylight Time |
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Monday, April 26 2004 @ 11:35 AM Eastern Daylight Time |
| It was very difficult for me to speak at my brothers funeral. I have not been able to post what I had wanted to say. That will remain largely between my brother and myself. Let it suffice, that they are some of the things I wanted to say to him when he got married. They were my ways of letting him know how proud I was of him. How I admired, and looked up to him, even as his big brother. How I loved and love amir. (I wonder if you can hear me, Amir? It seems appropriate in this electronic purgatory. Perhaps you visit as a ghost in the machine?). Below is what I was able to say at his shloshim. 30 days (THIRTY DAYS!) after we buried amir.
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